I really have no idea. Seriously.

First of all, I would like to thank everyone for all of your support, love and help.  You’re making planning my wedding a lot easier, and it’s a wonderful feeling knowing that so many people want to make the day perfect for me and Peter.  You are all doing a wonderful job of making sure that I am getting my top choices (venue, for example), and I am beyond thrilled  and really, really cannot thank you enough!!

However, now I need to throw something out there, and I don’t think you’ll like it.  I’ve thought long and hard about this, and yes, I need to say it.  You won’t be happy.  Ok.  I’ll just say it.  My hands are sweating.

I don’t know.  

I do not know.  
I, Sara Jane Vanderstappen, do. not. know.

MAN.  It feels GOOD to get that off my chest!!  Allow me to explain:

I know I said it in the last post, but I have no other way to describe it – these last few weeks have been such a whirlwind.  I really can’t even begin to describe all of the emotions that have been running rampant through my mind, body, and soul.  Yes.  All three.  It’s THAT intense.  I need to really try hard to give you an idea of these emotions.  I’ll start with a timeline:

November 25, 2011: Peter asked me to marry him.  I said yes.  And I was quite thrilled.  Still am, actually.

November 27ish, 2011: Peter and I decided to get married in June, 2013.

December 5, 2011: I called the church and booked the date of June 8, 2013 for our wedding.  This was quite an exciting day.

December 15, 2011: We met with the photographer that would later become our wedding photographer.  For our June 2013 wedding.

January 3, 2012: Peter’s mom told us about a wedding contest that she thought we should enter.

January 10, 2012: We sent in our application for the “win a wedding” contest.

January 19-20, 2012: Peter and I went down to Lake Geneva to look at wedding venues for the date of June 8, 2013.

January 24, 2012: We found out that we were semi-finalists in the contest.  We also found out that if we won, the wedding would be on April 26 or 27.  2012.

February 4-12, 2012: Voting for the winning couple.  You all helped us win, and it was SOOOO exciting!!!!!!  THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! 

February 13, 2012: We found out that we won the wedding.  But that is all that we found out. So we knew that we were getting married sometime at the end of April 2012, but that is all we knew.  So we contacted the photographer, the DJ and our bridal party to tell them that our wedding date was going to change pretty drastically, but we didn’t know when the wedding would be.

February 18, 2012: Peter and I had to make a guest list.  We hadn’t even really thought about a guest list.  Because we weren’t supposed to get married so soon!!

February 19, 2012: We registered for our April wedding at two stores.  Peter also made the invitations, and got them to a place where the only thing left was putting in information that we didn’t have.  Like date.  And church.  And venue.  You know, the little details.

February 20, 2012: We found out the venue and the menu.  We found out at 11:15 when the radio announced it.  We didn’t get called before anyone else.  With this, we found out the exact date.  From there, we were able to book the church, finish the invitations, get accommodations, and did I say book the church?

Also on February 20, the voting for my wedding dress began.  

I have a confession: I didn’t know what dresses were going to be put online for everyone to vote on.  So when you asked, I was being honest when I said that I didn’t know which dress you should vote for.  No, I did not try on any of the dresses before the voting began.  I like dress 2, so please keep voting for it.  

More things I know about my wedding dress: the dress that gets voted on WILL be the dress that I wear on my wedding day (so again, I’ve fallen in love with choice 2, so vote away!!).  I will be able to make changes to the dress as I see fit (ie. add a belt, change style a little bit to make sure it fits my body well, add straps, shorten train, etc.).  The dress is being sponsored by a custom designer, so it will be one-of-a-kind made only for me.  When I make changes to the dress, I will not be telling anyone, and when I have my fitting I will not be taking pictures of myself in my dress.  The only people that will see my REAL wedding dress before the wedding are my mom and Peter’s mom.   This is one aspect of the wedding that I want to keep a surprise.  Again, you will all know the dress that I’m going to wear, but it won’t be the EXACT dress.  

Peter isn’t going to go on the WLKG website from here forward, because I don’t want him to see my dress.  He’s ok with that.  He won’t know anything about my dress until he sees me walking down the aisle on our wedding day.  I know he’ll love the dress that I wear.

When I say that I don’t find out anything until everyone else does, I’m being 100% honest.  I’m not just saying that because someone tells me to.  I really do not know anything more that what I’ve written on my blog or shared on Facebook. 

As for things that are being voted on in future, I also don’t know that.  I mean, I know the categories that are being voted on (click here if you missed the last post), but I don’t know what the specifics are.  I have not seen the bridesmaids dresses that you will choose from.  I have no idea what the flowers look like.  I do not know what flavor cake will be voted on.  

So I’ll make you a promise – when I find something out about anything that has to do with the wedding contest that we won, I PROMISE that I will let you know.  It will first appear on Facebook, because that’s the easiest.  It may take a day or 3 or maybe even 4, depending on how busy I am, to put it on my blog, but I promise I will.  Mondays are going to be very busy for the next couple of months, because those are the days that we find out one more detail of our wedding, and we are able to do something with it.  But I promise you that you will know things when I know them.  

I want to tell you that I’m not upset for all of the questions that are being asked.  The questions show me that you really do care, and you want the day that I marry my best friend to be the day of my dreams.  But please be patient with me – because a lot of your questions I really just don’t know the answers to.  

I have had every emotion possible in the last few weeks, but the one that I’ve had the most is awe.  I’ve been in awe about how supportive everyone has been.  You’ve all been so wonderful and kind, and I truly do not have the words to show my gratitude for that.  

I never would have dreamed that Peter and I would win a wedding contest to have our wedding essentially planned for us.  While I’ve had my moments of stress and anxiety, I can honestly say that now that we have the main details figured out, the only emotions I have a positive ones – happiness, excitement, gratitude, love, inspiration, amusement, awe… the list goes on and on.  So thank you. 

And keep up the good work 🙂


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